OK so.... I am extremely mad at myself. I booked my trip to FR less than a week ago and had all of these good intentions on getting a head start on things. After all I don't want to start eating worse before I go gallivanting off to Utah to better my life, health, mind and appearance! That would be ridiculous! I don't want to gain weight before I go, so that all of the effort I put in at the Ridge takes me back to the weight I was at the time of booking the trip! GRRRRR! If I keep acting like I did tonight that's EXACTLY what will happen!
I was sucked into the vortex of `shopping while hungry`. All the experts say DO NOT go shopping hungry. Tonight I didn`t listen! I came back with Oreos, brownies, bagels and Taquitos! And I didn't just have a couple of Taquitos I ate 3 quarters of the damn box! I would have ate the WHOLE box, but it wouldnt fit on the baking pan!!! LOL As usual it felt great at the time. Now I am sitting here watching a movie feeling like I have a stomach full of lead, feeling slightly nauseous. Blah..
I cant undo what was done. I have a huge urge to beat myself up over it. I'm not going to though. All I can do is promise myself to up the effort 100%.. pick myself up and brush myself off..
I am done with making myself sick with the sudden voracious binging!!!
I am hopeful that my 4 weeks at the Ridge will be successful at getting the cravings out of my system. I'm hoping it`ll be long enough to get through the withdrawals and get my appetite under control. From what I hear that's exactly what will happen. It has to happen. I AM SO MAD AT MEEEEE!! That's the last I'm going to say about that. I'm dropping it now. Tomorrow is a new day!
73 MORE DAYS!
Is it too early to pack? LOL
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Ugh :P
Posted by Brandi at 10:03 PM
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Hey Brandi, we've ALL been there. I've gained 5 lbs since I booked my trip to FR. I get mad at myself for overeating, and then eat more to make myself feel better. So, let's make a buddy pact to STOP the insanity! And I'm like you - I read the blog 5 times a day! Mostly because it encourages me that regular people have gone to FR and changed their lives, so I know I can do it to.
Deal! Lets stop the insanity!! Its always nice to ave someone in the same boat to hold eachother accountable! We will be GREAT!
i'm going to keep an eye on those groceries that come through, and take out the junk!! lol
You're welcome :) hee!!! xoxo
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